Change

It’s amazing how change is, for most people, their greatest fear. Most will admit that a static life is boring and unfulfilling while maintaining that change is rough and difficult. I’m at a point in my life rife with change. I graduate in 3 months, after which I have a tentative plan but of course nothing is concrete and that scares the living daylights out of me. What will I do? How will I manage without the support line that is my parents? Do I have any marketable skills? If not, how quickly can I acquire some, and which are the ones that I should focus on picking up? These are questions that have plagued me for a while, and as graduation day comes closer, I find myself worrying more and more. In addition to this, I have finally found someone amazing to share my life with but, as Murphy’s Law will have it, the circumstances are less than ideal. What is the best way to cope with all these new feelings and expectations? It is at times like these when I wish that I had the power of lucid expression, but my thoughts are cloudy and the only certainty lies in asking questions.

This is not the first major threshold that I have had to cross and I’m sure it isn’t the last, but I hope that any maturity, wisdom and experience that I may have got over the last three and a half years will help me refine my methods for dealing with this massive milestone in my life. The answer, I have convinced myself, is in doing what needs to be done for now. Changing my focus from the bigger picture to the details and making sure I do all that is in my power to garner new opportunities that will allow me to pass through this threshold with as little pain as possible. Will this work? Only time will tell.

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